I have two friends who don't see eye to eye

I have two friends who don’t see eye to eye. On the rare occasion that you find them in the same place, they will be at each other’s necks. One is Zidd and the other one is Samajdhari. Both of them love me dearly. Although I must admit that Samajdhari detests my affection for Zidd. “Who do you love more?” they asked me once. How do I answer this question, I wondered. Imagine a partner, who was two timing, caught and questioned by their partners, “Who do you love more!” To be honest, Samajhdari had been in my life before Zidd. But when I was molested as a kid and felt that the world had abandoned me, my relationship with Samajhdari took a hit. We broke up for a few years. That is when Zidd entered my life and cared for me. Zidd would vehemently protect me from people who always had things to say about me- 'Girls don’t get angry!' 'No will marry you if you ruin your face in Karate fights!' 'It is inauspicious for girls to break coconut during auspicious occasions.' 'If you want to be considered at par with boys, you need to be on playground like them.'Zidd would tell them how these people are wrong. Zidd would tell me that failing wasn’t an option if we were to prove these people wrong. And yet, I failed multiple times. But Zidd refused to leave my side. During such times, Samajhdari would try and be by my side, telling me how things would eventually become ok. But I was too broken hearted to hear her voice. Samajhdari never left my side but our relationship was never completely healed. My relationship with Zidd grew stronger day by day. But here is the thing- Zidd is very possessive and does not like it when I talk to others who don’t agree with her. I know she is right most of the times. But even she is wrong, she doesn’t admit it. The stronger my relationship with Zidd became, my relationship with my family took a hit. Zidd would say, “Don’t worry about them. They are wrong, you are right. Keep doing what you do.” I must say that it was because of Zidd that I did well in life. But Samajhdari reminded me that despite our differences, my family never left my side. I am still torn between Zidd and Samajhdari. I hope that they become better friends some day. I hope that some day, all 3 of us can sit and have a drink together, me, my Zidd and my Samajhdari.